Haiz...today seems to be an unlucky day. Wah piang, today morning go take bus hor...i wave at the bus but the bus nv stop, jus went past me in front of my eyes..wah...make me almost late loh..lucky got 1 J2 student...den take cab to sch together... Then today at first i should hand in my assignment, then in the end forgot..only now then remember. Then dunno what happen to me...can suddenly like veri angry and sian with all my work loh..really dunno wat i'm angry over with...den i like got this thinking of heck care everything...dunno y..strange..den today i say i will go make or buy gift for tml's t-cher's day...den in the end nv buy oso..ahh...den afternoon after tt PW lect..wah..i suddenly become like shock liao...so many things pop up all of the sudden...like alot of things to do sia...die liao...alot of work nv complete...den nv revise my work oso. Haiz..dunno y i everytime veri miserable leh...ppl around me laugh i like oso not happy liddat...think i like beginning to isolate myself man...dunno y dun like to talk to ppl...like everything seems meaningless..lol..oh ya..still got my CO tickets to sell n my erhu to practice..really dunno y suddenly got alot of things to do..den today jus got promo timetable..sian...need to prepare for promo...b4 tt still got to prepare co concert stuff...after tt promo still got to prepare oral presentation for PW...wah..OP..think i fail liao lah..call me to present in front of ppl...my words sure unclear one loh, den sure oso not fluent, like wat i get for my gp presentation everytime..dunno wat i toking...Sian..c lah...so many dots here n there again liao...den today dunno wat..think tml when go back sec sch ms phua will cry or wat...really think too much liao...haiz..think i stop now liao...now i really beginning to feel tt stress i nv felt b4 in my whole 17 yrs of life...even sec 4 time oso not so stress loh...wah lao..still got chn compo to do...dunno how long nv hand in liao, maybe 1-2 months? lol...den now i really beginning to feel the emptiness in my heart....think this feeling came around july..dunno y i like no expression liddat..happy sad or angry oso like no change on my face..den always try to control it no matter wat...really want to like dunno wat sometimes...it's like pretending nothing happen loh..haiz...dunno wat to say abt myself oso...sometimes i really hate myself when i c ppl around me...think i too pessimistic liao bah..it seems that nothing can really cheer me up and like beginning to lose interest n hope in almost everything..really feel veri veri lonely sia..think really got problem liao...nvm..i pray tt tml will be fine...haha...