haha,, promos finally over, but now still cannot slack...sian...haiz..all bcos of projectwork(pw).. need to rush report..prepare oral presentation..den prepare for yr end chn oso..most pathetic is...we still cannot get our results...onli after nx wed...so scared...but abit lame lah... the most fail n retain...n if i really retain...i think i can go die liao..wasted 1 yr..den now recently really got tt feeling of dying..dunno y...getting weaker n weaker, n more tired easily...den no mood to do stuff oso...den now worst...soemtimes cannot even slp properly...haiz..duno wat went wrong...now hope to get distinctions...but now seems no hope liao..after hearing t-chers coments.really hopeless liao...i think tis time really canot tahan liao...my so-call dream gone case...Now really miss my sec 4 ppl...they still the best...JC wah piang,..too competitive liao...now scared if i stay longer...i may go crazy cos i really hate to c i cannot get something i want...even i tried hard...den oso feeling really the lonely liao...it seems i really isolated myself frm ppl...really soemtimes dun even haf the mood to tok..jus hopin my jc life end...now to me it's abit like hell liao...no joy...fun still got but veri little...cos most of time study....den our holidays for nx yr n this comin dec/nov holiday oso gone liao...sure got remedails n stuff...den nx yr oso SYF, co sure train like hell oso...wah sian..co...i mus still collect those files used in the concert if co starts...now recently really dunno wat wrong wif me..soemtimes oso cannot think properly of wat to write...den soemtiems hope to faint while in sch...den soemtimes feel like ponin lessons n go home slp...haiz...think i really slack too much liao...think tis dec/nov mus study n prepare for nx yr liao...sian....really i feel like no joy in doing things...think i veri soon cannot rwrite liao...cos too much thigns to say ...arhhh...dunno y suddenly feel so vexed, really no rm to vent my stress...think now i oso stop thinking abt romance...really make me sick...everytiem fail...think i gif up..jus let gals woo me...lol....den if really i cannot stand those stress n blah blah blah...i go be monk...haha...so many things bothering me...hope can heck care everything n do wat i want but still....i can;t express...im like refraining myself to do alot of things that i wish to do..den now when cmes to sports really oso hopeless...think i too weak to play wif normal ppl liao...the way they play i think i sure cannot tahan...sian....REALLY VERI LONELY...think i really destined to be alone liao...think playin oso can't hep me liao..maybe really got depression liao..haiz...4get it..really think too much liao loh...everytime liddat one...haiz...cannot control...honestly..guys usually don't own blogs...and guys mostly keep their problems to themselfs one loh..i oso liddat..keep until got problem....den i too stress oso cannot cry or wat ever...haiz...cos guy mah...den veri shame to got tears....sian lah...pathetic...really somtimes nothing really interest me liao....hope can some god or wat help me...i think i been liddat for many yrs liao....jus that no one noes...and maybe i really got a serious problem that i myself dunno oso....aiya..heck care lah...now really dun bother to think so much...hope to really dun other abt so much things n be happy...but i sure cannot one..:S