haiz..nowadays really feel veri sad n depress...but i try my best not to show...haiz...it seems tt i'm being abandonded...n tt feeling came abt yesterday, when alot of my classmates go support our sports...cheer for them...dunno y i got tis kind of feeling...jus feel tt way...yesterday oso finally tok abt smthg tt i always wanted to so-called share but dun always can't find ppl to tok...keep inside for a veri long time...n ya...after tokin abt tt my whole emotion jus went abit hay-wire...now think even more sad...but dunno the cause...maybe i really think too much le bah...today i even suspect of smthg fishy...hope it's not true...or maybe i too sensitive...dunno...really hope it's not true....if it's true i really dunno how to accept it..maybe go into isolation or wat...really dun dare to think n imagine wat i will do...haiz...i always call ppl not to think too much...cos it will add pressure to yourself...but now...haiz....y am i doing wat i always told others not to...so contradicting...den got my 16PF...results quite accurate...if interested maybe find me...i share..haha...haiz...nowadays really dun haf tt mood to study le...yesterday's mood went straight down...today oso...if tis continues i think i really no need study le...keep thinking abt tt stupid things...sian...so hard to control my mind...jus tis wk jiu alot of headaches le...maybe either is i think too much..or too stress...or maybe think too much until i make myself veri stress...haiz...dunno...always feel tt my head like going to burst...sometimes abit giddy...dunno wat's wrong wif me...now like i start to worry alot of things...think alot of things oso...cannot help it...sometimes really feel like jus go n slp...but i will start thinking all sorts of things again....sian sian sian...tv,pc n all sort of things seem no interest in me... or should say i lose interest in them...lol...really dunno wat i really want...scared i going back to the same old me...really scared all my efforts to try to change myself will go down the drain...really dunno wat future holds for me sometimes...dun dare to think oso...only make myself maybe more sad...den oso beginning to think abt my past unhappiness sia..sian...really mus go slp...if not think until i go crazy or wat...dunno wat to do...want to do n complete tuts n asgnmnts oso cannot force myself to do it...think i'm sort of losing my self control or wat...dunno..alot of Ys...haiz...really dunno y i cannot stop thinking...slpslpslp...