haiz..dunno y yesterday finally cannot take the stress or wat...after training go home n slp till dinner time...no mood to do anything...think i too depress le...really too much things at one go...cannot digest n accept...den oso think too much...heart always floating ard...hard to settle dwn...think now all it's over le.back to normal...really abit scared of wat i will do nx time when tis happens..can onli keep all the things to myself..can't say n describe..think maybe wq is right..no one really understands each other..no matter how close...if one really understands another..he will be the other n lost himself...haha..think too much..always think how other ppl think but always nv think abt myself...too engross le...den now sian...tml maths test fail again..most probably...till now still cannot complete gp..dunno how to finish..no ideas...maths think can again pray hard bah..if pass really a miracle...think my life messed up liao..lost track of readin newspprs...alot of things i usually would do all nv do le...go out too much le...maybe tis another reason i reject their offer yesterday...now say sry oso no use le..everything it's over le...no cure...haiz...think i mus start planning wat i should do nx...so hard to maintain contact wif ppl..think i still not able to sacrifice my studies for friendship...studies still at first place...so maybe tt's y over the past yrs till now...still a loner...haiz...but at least better liao...got ppl to tok to n go out wif...but no one to share my sorrow...nvm..think i better dun think too much..really scared i officially enter into state of depression...lol..dunno wat will happen oso...usually ppl did some foolish things they usually dun even think of when they are too depress..jus onli a matter of time everything will be over...sometimes it's gd to let nature take its course...haha...2330 le...mus start piahing le..think my social network small until veri pathetic...but now though trying hard to socialise...think if anything bad happens..feel hurt or wat..think i straight away shut my door up le...think sometimes i really too sensitive oso...haiz...but still my face the same expression...oso find it hard to smile...think if got chance mus settle my teeth problem wif braces...lol...but too bad...everything need $$$...n i no haf..haha...mus save up le..