now think really i'm not my usual self le...now like really veri moody le...dun feel like interacting..always alone...haiz...today saw them in lib...but sadly...i nv say or gif any statements when i saw her...really feel like knowin how she's coping n all that...but in the end...nv ask or greet...haiz...been in there for almost 2hrs...and i used books n hw as disguise to avoid her...sometimes really wonder y i'm doing all this...the results is veri clear but yet i...nothing to say abt myself...sometime really hate myself for being like tis...y can't i jus forgive n forget...haiz...dun want to say anymore...really alot of struggles inside my heart...jus cannot stand myself!!! anyway...today i jus got a cut on my neck...after my haircut...dunno issit my skin too soft or wat...everytime after haircuts my neck will be red n swollen...now even worse...got blood le...nvm..hope haf a new haircut, i will haf a new beginning...everything it's over...regret oso useless..sry no cure...mus continue my life no matter how painful n hard...den today jus met my exclassmate..she quitted sch in sec 3..bcos of peer pressure...now 4 yrs nv saw her...changed alot...but when i saw myself...it seems tt i'm still the old me...not much diff...haiz..dun say le...haven't even eat my dinner...tml still got chem spa skill b n d to piah...ahhh...mus start settling all these stuff le...if not too late!!!...