haiz...now recently behaving abit weird le..at least to myself...dunno y...alot of simple things oso go wrong...liquid correct answers instead of mistakes...dunno wat i thinking...not focusin le...tuts n asgnmnts all nv complete...think i really a letdown liao...others do finish liao except me...sian...dunno wat i really thinking...den today meet pri sch ex-classmate..n i actually forget her name...c her face damm familiar but i forgot her name sia...oso dunno wat i'm thinkin at tt time...it seems tt my memory is letting me dwn...cannot remember things well tis few days...think i really neeed to clear my thoughts out once again...always feel so sian..dun even noe wat i really want to do wif myself oso...think can breakdown soon liao if tis continue...haiz...so hard to stop thinking sia...always call others to concentrate but i myself cannot...i'm really such a failure....now think ppl avoiding me liao...or maybe i'm jus over suspicous n too sensitive again..dunno...really hope someone can gif me an answer to all my qns n guide me back to the right track...now leh...keep staring blankly outside the window...veri pathetic...headache...tml stil got spa n i still wasting my time here...really dunno wat i'm doing right now...jus scribbling wat i got in my mind...now some of my friends oso having the same feelin as me le...dunno is conincidence or maybe i influenced them...really dun dare to think...now oso start missing ppl and thinkin back again...regretting alot of things again...wat i should haf done n not done...nvm...everything it's over...think oso no use...it's history....maybe tis fri can jus go home n slp...shut my doors...if not i really dunno wat i thinking...haha...soemtimes dun even noe i exist or not loh..no ppl need me leh in sch...at home maybe...haiz...thinking too much..hopefully all these dun kill me or wat...let's hope all these can jus pass on n i can calm myself dwn...n ya...stop thinking all these nonsence...think tml phy spa skill a can flung again...really no mood to prepare liao..sian..........................