haiz...tis wk really pathetic...slackin through the whole week loh..nv really study...den keep listen music n dreaming n singing...now den i realise tt i can't really study much now...lock my TYS in sch's locker...how to pass my phy test on wed....sure doom liao tis time..no luck...chem spa skill A oso nv study...alot of work nv do...say 1 to cut hair but nv cut...feel like going to watch concert but nv buy tickets...den want to study oso nv study...now think my life finally messed up liao...by my emotions bah..always no mood...esp after thurs incident...haiz...cannot blame anyone but myself...always cannot let go of certain things...always cal ppl dun think too much...call them to jiayou...yet i sit dwn there thinking n slackin....tis wk sing until mad...fri n sat go kbox sing n sing...now still feel like singing sia...but broke liao..haha...den do stupid things oso...walk home frm sch again...2nd time liao...den jus now 1.45 jus bathe...cos cannot slp...haiz..really msesed up liao..daytime becum nite...nite becum day....den dunno y always cannot control my thoughts...cannot let go loh..haiz..yy's rite..i should really let go liao....but dunno y i cannot.... sian.....alot of things always go into my mind loh...either i worry too much, think too much...or too much time to waste....now left less tha 1 mnth to mid-yr CT n yet i still slackin...dunno wat i really want to do wif myself..really fed up wif myself sometimes...now think going to haf no motivation soon...need some inspiration...den think my mood oso affected some of the ppl ard me liao..sick sia me...dunno y i mus do such things....now dunno how they doin or not...haiz....jus feel so sandwiched...contradicting.....always going against myself...haha....stupid.....dunno wat went wrong oso...nvm....think n hope time can help me solve tis kind of thingie...i always cannot learn frm mistakes one....dunno y oso...now suddenly alot of Ys liao....lol...nvm...now think until no mood slpin...anyway...let's hope tt i can get my As tis time rd...haha...mus start doing wat i done in sec3 n 4..if not i sure cannot survive n cope....anyway...think ppl think tt i'm a loner....n ya...tt's gd...got myself a nice image....lol....haha....now duno wat i writing oso liao...i really veri blur now le...think maybe i should jus stop here in case i really 'lost' myself...haha